so yeah
I finally realized...no that's a lie....I finally accepted the fact that I'm not really into romantic things...I always hated the idea of getting flowers (for any reason) from a person....even Valentine's Day makes me feel a bit ill.
I'm one of those few people in this world that can do without the love part....sometimes even the physical part.....later I might contradict myself....and I might end up wanting the full package....which I fear...but yet I want.
sometimes I even wondered how the hell could anyone ever wanted go out with me? I mean...I'm not really the kind of person who can someone can talked to about feelings......cuz I barely talk about my own....and if I do...most of the shit I say sounds sort of fucked up....like I seriously need to send to the Betty Ford clinic as soon as possible (which might be true)....most of the time...I lack emotion.
maybe something happened to me when I was being formed and somehow my creator missed some of those elements of that most people seem to have and placed elements of bullshit in place of those that are very much needed....see pure Betty Ford clinic type shit...except without the drugs and alcohol addictions....I'm a pure mental case.
so yeah....if you are reading this and wondering if the person who wrote this has issues they clearly need to work on....you, my dear, is 100% right.
here's a money shot for you to enjoy
Glassjaw - Siberian Kiss (which has been included in the soundtrack of one of my most favorite movies: Ginger Snaps)
Glassjaw is pretty much one of those bands that have albums that can make you feel like "holy shit....I've fucking been feeling this way forever...and finally someone else feels this way"...fucking amazing if you asked me (which you weren't to be honest, eh?)
so....if you think I'm crazy...say so in form of a comment.
you don't even have to let me know who you are.....write something rude to me....it may just amuze me....or don't....
- until another post which lacks sense....
ZD
sorry for the swear words..... but fuck it.... :D
